I'm actually very, very, very

excited for my haircut on Wednesday. Is that a first?


Oh the things Maddi and I whisper about in her kitchen, late at night.

And finally:

Getting the talk, the "I'll tell you when you're older" talk. Only a small part of it, and not in so much detail as I expected. But, it finally got here. Finding out your parents actually had lives before you. They've been through everything. It all. Everything. That's how they find out what you hide. That's how.
I never knew you did the things I wouldn't even consider trying. I didn't think you understood the way I felt, like actually understood. But now I know. You were very, very like me, Mom. Almost to the exact.


I just hope I don't grow up to be like you.

Two down from here.

X marks the spot. All over, all over.





Missing the sunscreen smell. Missing the darker shade of skin. Missing the sleeping outside, and the only us. Evening it out, but still missing the refreshing popsicle after laying in the sun for hours. Opening my eyes, after all that time and everything was blue. Only us, only us, only us. Never thought I'd miss it, until it was gone...like it is now.
Not saying I don't like the way things are going now, because I love it. The differentness of it all.

Reading body language.

A new obsession. MY new obsession.

Clouds in my coffee.

Getting home from a vacation, and coming home to realize you're still on one.
What does the word "vacation" mean to me? -Time away. In simplest detail.

There is so much I'm dying to tell you. So much I want to get off my shoulders. I just can't find the right time, or the right words. I know whatever I say, will get turned around completely and made into something that's "my fault". Waiting should be my best bet, but somethings you just need to know now, before it's too late. And by too late, I mean the end. The end completely.

Of course I wouldn't want that. Never in a million years.

Wow.

Is all I have to say.

You've got to be kidding. Aren't you?

This has been

great.


And I got the best pair of slippers for Hannukkah tonight!
I just wish my webcam would work.