In my back pocket.

I'm not even going to waste my time anymore.

How much longer?

I'm not too sure how long I can keep this up.
It's so much better keeping everything to myself though. Even if every emotion I've been hiding explodes out to you, on that moment when I thought you were asleep. Because for some strange reason, I find life so much easier this way. With these unshared thoughts in my head, me and you. I just love it all kept quiet. But at the same time, trying to act like there's nothing going on.
It would be nice if you woke up, I've just remembered all of the things I'd like to share with you. What am I supposed to do? I'd like to know what I should do.
Well, I'm hiding.


A sunrise and a sunset. You are lying while you confess, keep trying to explain.
The sunrise and the sun sets. You realize and then you forget, what you have been trying to retain.

I knew this was a pattern,

I just think every time it's going to change. Of course, it doesn't. It's always the same thing with you. Stop feeling bad, because I'm very, very used to it.

lies.

I've changed my mind,

You know, I've really changed my mind.
It's hard guessing what you're thinking, though.

and Happy Birthday

to my very, very best friend. Eighteen days later from now, I'll have known her for two years exactly. It has to be way longer, it seems like so much longer. Long or not, I couldn't ask for someone better. I would never ask for someone better, since there is not one person better than this one.
Have a wonderful, wonderful birthday Maddi. You definitely deserve one.

The smell

of the air outside today, is what I love most about my entire year. Spring smelling breeze. Every season overjoys me with it's own scent.

2 more hours of my waiting game.