and Happy Birthday

to my very, very best friend. Eighteen days later from now, I'll have known her for two years exactly. It has to be way longer, it seems like so much longer. Long or not, I couldn't ask for someone better. I would never ask for someone better, since there is not one person better than this one.
Have a wonderful, wonderful birthday Maddi. You definitely deserve one.

The smell

of the air outside today, is what I love most about my entire year. Spring smelling breeze. Every season overjoys me with it's own scent.

2 more hours of my waiting game.

I really,

hope you make the right decision. You know how much I care, do you care that much too? You say you do, you say it a lot. I just don't understand why I can't get myself to believe that someone could care as much as I do. Today, while you're thinking, don't let what happened lead your mind away from me.

You're the reason I love losing sleep.

VENTURA TODAY!

And everything is great, back to normal, thank you so much for understanding.

Is this the end?

Please, don't let me think this.

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I honestly don't even know what I'm about to say. My mind is stopping me, but I feel like I need to write atleast one sentence to describe what I feel right now. Not that more than one sentence is too much, it's just not necessary. I feel like I've already said it this way, and that way, and that way, to you a million times. So will it ever get old? Will it ever not make you feel better, like it does now? I'm afraid that telling you what I do, over and over again, will lose it's meaning after time. (But I can't stop). Although, there is that pinky promise, THE pinky promise, I'm always being reassured by you, that it will never be broken. But when this gets old, what happens? I hate thinking about it, but my mind won't let go of the thought. Please let go of the thought, and just know:

I really do believe you.

It's not all that great.

I really, really hope you enjoy the trouble you're getting yourself into.


Another thing, I'm stressssiinnggggg.

Oh yeah..

26 and counting.

I wish I wish

I wish I wish I wish I wish I wish I wish you just felt the same way.